Why are all these people fighting me just for superstitious reasons? and rubbing in racism all the time?

It's like I don't have any relationships.  Everyone is submitting to some elevated power.

My mom died, and I've been pointed out a lot like I'm her flaw, secretly, at least by one person though others would agree but not to make obvious.

I bet if you do ballet, musicians like ballerinas over me but not applicable to others.

Some people online got affected by what I said, apparently not doing what they're supposed to.

People keep acting like they have it together and are over and above me like they have a handle on me.  Other than things like torture and death etc., it's one of the worst things in the world.

Supposedly, an older lady I like doesn't do bad things so much, but people are cluing me in as though she's getting mad at me...

People are freaking out as though someone may be attacking my relationship with an older lady I like just because I posted something I thought of after thinking of them.

People like to blame everything on some one thing.

How dare anyone "question" me.

People are so disrespectful to dare mistreat me.  I was loved by one and by all, in a former life.

It seems like someone I knew went against me, and I'm not even a part of their life.  I know, I remember the likes of people there and now don't want to go back.  Wish I could just go into details, but I'm just saying; I didn't do anything wrong and don't mean anything bad, just noticed obvious secret messages.

It wasn't like this before.

In the end, I'm the short fat one living with her dad, like something's not okay about us.

My life is so lame, the things some people think matter for me.  How did people get so opinionated over me?  They weren't in my life much.

My life isn't okay.

People have to tell themselves I'm a failure.  It wasn't like this before?  When is it going to change?  I don't even care about many people.

People in Germany and England do whatever they want and some aren't actually impressive more themselves.

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I feel like I've been banned from posting online because the message boards I post on are lame and perverted.

I guess everyone is busy with their school or career and enjoying racial popularity.

People want to jump at you and think it proves you're not all that.

Most people don't post much online to be seen.

The world is going crazy saying an older lady I like should replace my social reputation.

Everyone used to say I was so good and now they think I am bad.

They keep doing whatever other people emit, like I'm the ultimate sacrifice.

Europeans often like me.

I'm the well-behaved one.

The world thinks I'm conveniently in trouble.

Why are things getting worse, in a way how I am with others?

Americans are banned from being impressive.

I really need to move to Europe if I ever want to make anything of my already good life.

I thought I was generally in good graces.  What did I ever do wrong to an older lady I like?  Just messing with me, "Yea, I get it."

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Who lives their life in argument trying to please others?

It's as though an older lady I like is upset if I use figurative language.

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They said someone cool is in on saying an older lady I like can't meet me who she saw.  They can't take it back;  they seem to be playing around like maybe he didn't, though.

My dad keeps acting like I did something and he's annoyed, of course to do with ruining a relationship I have with and older lady I like.

People are actually saying it can come than an older lady I life trades off not meeting me teasing like maybe I did something they didn't like or it's like that for "lazy" reasons.