People pretending they have a problem is an excuse.

Why do people replace me with people with problems like starving kids in Africa?

I don't know why people who meet me have others to answer to because there aren't many people in my life much.

If other people ruined your life socially, why bother innocent me?

It's not fun when you're not popular and you have to be careful around people too much.

People set me up like they were open arms, but now they are all racist like I am forbidden.

Why do people believe something that's not true, that I'm bad and others are mistreated because of me doing it?

People keep harassing me and lying, like I'm doing something wrong.

I'm not depending on other people about whether or not I have a relationship with an older lady I like.

People think they can permanently take my relationship instead.

People are just trashing my life right and left!

People keep telling me what I do that I don't do...

People are seen as a hero for saying when something awkward happens with me, saying I'm bad and hurting me socially, making me wince a lot.

I am a good person, but people are giving me nonsensical rules and putting the most important things in my life at stake.

Mostly, if something awkward happens, people chose to be disgusted at me, like I'm not as good and "not a lady."

I just can't trust a lot of people.

People think they have a hold over me.

Me Playing Violin Now

People think being mean to me is necessary for protocol ... and excitement.

unfair "distribution of resources"

"In the end," "when it all comes down to it," I'm disgraced by racism and unfair advantage of resources.

It's not *actually* a "free for all" nor fair as it seems everyone says "life is not fair."

Teachers are "cheating us out" "on our way" "to the top."

Some people think sex is commercially attractive.

I want to know "what" someone I like "turned into."

Baby Boomers can't beat us.

What are you looking around for?  Something else just for other people, like an older lady I like? and ruin my life? like a toy that cannot do anything?

Edit

I edited my last post.

People who "got away with" "horsing around" with my life "aren't going anywhere."

People keep getting me disgraced for flunking college because my schools wouldn't prepare me.

I don't get praised for when I do act European in a good way, but get a coveted European in the spotlight and any little tiny thing is like magic to the world.

I guess tonight I'll dye my hair back to its natural color.

(continued)

just because I didn't start younger

I feel people want to prevent me from playing violin, professionally/well.

What's the hold-up?

Why is nothing happening and possibly never going to happen?

Update

I added a new message board I post on.

It's not about talent but racial superiority and common racial interest issues for the details.

I think people just tickle white humor when they perform, white as in Caucasian.  There is a common kinesthesia experience rather than synesthesia; kinesthesia meaning to do with the person or people and synesthesia meaning to do with the meaning of art, something like that though.  They both deal with how people and artistic/sensory things connect intuitively, I believe.

I wonder why I'm not good at anything just because I'm older now.

When you watch ballet, do you ever see something more?

If you're talented, if you mess up, you aren't accepted.

I wonder why classical music isn't about talent.