Everyone keeps being mean to me like they're better than me and that's okay.

People like to see me as the awkward one socially.  They are.

I got odd with nothing much to do.

I wish I could have stayed in music.

Unlike most people, I cannot trust my future.

I might have as much Italian as Britney Spears, but it may be from Germany.  Why does she seem different?  I don't want to be different.

What is this?  Why is there no one to talk to outside of my dad?

It seems people aren't people because of the over popularity in a weird way with the bad people of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton.

I'm just wasting time cuz I can't play violin.

She kinda took over my life supposedly...

See, I didn't do anything wrong, and I can't have a relationship with an older lady because of it.

So, if Germany is not Chinese they are Jewish or Italian?

They think they all have something we don't.  We're just more mixed.

England reveres Germany but trashes the US.

Germans ran to Scandinavia.  Maybe, some of the English need to shut up.  The nice ones are more introverted or something else.

What's all this nonsensical babble I get since getting into England with people?

I don't want to get intimate about stupid conversations like this.  It's not done productively here.

So, everyone else is free to go no matter what and I can't be?

How will I be accepted in today's society?  I don't want all the people I like to turn me away and I be left with this mess.

I know I have problems, but it's none of some people's business, my life was unfair.  Most people made it thinking they're just racially superior.  They're back and fighting for their rights.

I didn't do anything wrong, but people are accusing me.

How is it that some races are considered worthless and mixed race people in particular different in desire?  I don't really know what it is, but I don't want to fight about it.  Other Asians can speak for themselves.  I would rather be me; it's probably a fight about how old their mom is.  Why act out for someone who enjoys talking to me or something? and say they don't want to because of this?  I don't think it's nice to mix race, but sometimes it makes sense for some people.  It doesn't seem like other people are really better and nicer.  They won't talk to me because of my race; even if they are mean can get along with nice people because they are white.  I don't think people should treat me a certain way if they pretend or say they can't tell my race.  We currently can't accept people acting weird about race rather than admitting it out loud.  You shouldn't be stopping people on the street.  I'm probably whiter than other people and like it better, and other people are making excuses and don't want me to have a nice life.  Even if I'm not whiter, I don't have certain problems...  Why are other ethnicities coming to me saying Germans and Scandinavians and English people etc. don't accept them?  Go tell them and see what happens.  What's my crime?

Most people surprised me and labeled me "smart."  No need to worry about pleasing them, but I'd like to be smart in certain ways, for real.

It's not good for my future.

Why ruin my time now?

Everyone is complaining because their moms are older than mine, but it's left me dysfunctional socially, even in my privacy, with my reputation.

A lot of people are detailed in annoying ways and won't leave me alone with my success and good company.

People think I don't deserve anything because of my mixed race.

People want to keep paying attention to unnecessary detail about where I seem turned off and recluse-d.

You think this has all been okay?

So, how much ya got?

I guess some people like to get detailed in some extreme and fish for attention and lie about their beliefs with other people.

Orlando is just complaining always finding a way to make me seem bad, and other people from other places believe they have to get involved but don't fix it.  They just keep going, even if I outsmart them.

Why would anyone have to follow along with Orlando?  Mean people here seem to be getting by.

Do you think you're going to win?

Do some people have a problem understanding certain types of things? admitting the truth?

The US are making excuses because they trashed society by talking at school.

It's hard to get into people whose body or face is not shaped symmetrically or who aren't especially strong, substantial, etc.  Like, people with more normal-seeming proportions.

Even if I'm right, no one will admit it.

I guess some people can't handle it all.

How long have we been chasing this?  Some people are recognized for special needs.

So, all we need to do is get out of this.

I just easily rearranged stuff in my room, ready for a new table!

It's funny when people complain about someone but they still get the reward and others don't.  The complaining is just pretending to be polite about taking what was someone else's.

Edit

I edited my last post.

Why were people crazy because of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton?

I mean, Johnny Depp and Tim Burton are good, but people got competitive about them...

Most people go through life averting others, in case others don't "return the favor."

I had a salad for lunch.

It seems the Orlando area keeps wanting to make sure I'm punished talking about it all the time through the air, like communicating secretly.  They come out with something in the end, working on it taking turns all day.

The people involved monitoring me in private are staring me down to "lose it," in different ways.

I don't care what people say.  They are trying to change my relationship with an older lady I like for the worse for me.

A lot of whining about me about Central Florida seems to be going over.

People are obsessed I'm not perfect and single me out for my past problems with them.  I didn't start it.

So, an older lady I like is feeling celebrated and I'm hated.

If you're mean to someone, shame will come on its own.

I just found I can make chocolate oatmeal cookies with ingredients we supposedly have.

People are pressing on to punish me, for no reason.

However, when I was against people who promoted it openly, it was considered illogical...

It's like I'm supposed to be in awe of what an older lady has done to herself, supposedly.  Other than that she has the support of people on a "secret mission" or something.

They even think it's my fault.

People think they can do anything to me but try to make an older lady I like not care about me while oh so conveniently pleasuring her oddly instead.

People keep marching on, while my relationship with an older lady I like hey think *has* to be ruined.